I swift my gaze from my phone to hers, and analyse the pictures being displayed:
I fretfully scan her screen display:
Entrepeneur and business owner: Patricia Bright.
The perfect shade of melanin and no imperfection in sight: Kehinde Smith.
Enviable lifestyle and material possessions: Aaliyah Jay.
For the first time in my life I’m unsure how to respond to her question.
She eagerly looks at me: “Please how do I become like them?”.
I look up to the ceiling in the hope that the answer will dawn on me. It doesn’t. You see… I’ve been here before. Flicking through pictures on social media and comparing myself. Wondering, why at my age I haven’t been able to accomplish anything ‘substantial’.
My mind in a spiral, I wonder if I should give her a cliché response. You know… one of those typical quotes you see floating around the internet that we all love? “Comparison is the thief of joy” etc?
“No, I can’t tell her that” I think to myself. This girl has clearly asked me this question hoping for a concrete answer. If she wanted a cheesy quote I’m sure she would have gone to Pinterest.
“You want to be like those ladies?” I slowly ask her, forcibly trying to mask my uneasiness.
“Yes” she keenly responds.
“From what I can see they all have one thing in common: consistency. We all start from somewhere, they didn’t give up and here they now are – So don’t give up” I advise her with seriousness.
She looks at me and her face beams into an alluring smile. She looks ever so grateful, as though I had just let her in to some deep secret.
“Thank you sis, thank you so much. See you at the top.”
That last line resonated with me: “See you at the top”.
I had just shared the ‘supposed’ secret to success with someone who was keen and eager to acquire that knowledge. I disappointedly shake my head at myself; for I had been in on this ‘secret’ and had never applied it to myself.
I walk over to my bedroom wall and inspect my calendar: “12th December 2017” I mutter out loud.
I can either be basic and wait for the new year to enforce it as a “New year new me” mantra.
Or I can place my destiny into my own hands by acting accordingly as of today.
What will it be?